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Colloquial name of drug: Magic Mushrooms / Shrooms
Scientific name of drug: Liberty Caps (Psilocybe semilanceata)
Type of experience: Positive
Mg/dose: 2 grams, followed by another gram later; 3 grams total
Location: On New Years Eve, locked down in my flat in London
Who I took it with: With my boyfriend
I was a little nervous before taking shrooms.
I’d taken MDMA, ketamine and cocaine a fair bit at festivals, during university and on nights out but I’d never taken hallucinogens before. While I’m pretty comfy with some drugs, I had a few difficult years with mental illness as a teenager struggling with depression, paranoia and eating disorders so I’d never felt resilient enough to fully trust my mind. For anyone that knows me, I also have the world’s creepiest nightmares, often involving assault and murder. Think American Horror Story meet Freddie Krueger meet every serial killer documentary; that’s my nightmares. My mind’s capable of some scary stuff while sober so, as you can imagine, I was hesitant.
I think time and setting are key for hallucinogens and this is what I’ve heard from others too. For me, trying them on New Year’s Eve with my lovely, supportive, amazing boyfriend felt totally right. It was just the two of us in my little flat in London. He’d taken them before with friends so it felt good that one of us knew what to expect. I felt ready and comfortable and hopeful with 2021 kicking off (lol at me thinking it might be an end to COVID – got to love the optimism!)
We took them mid-afternoon, weighed them out (6 grams total) between us two, saying we’d start with 2 grams each and then add another if we wanted to later. Shrooms can last a while (I think about six hours?) and we both wanted to have our trip and be more or less sober again so we could drink before the countdown at midnight. Also, shrooms are, of course, mushrooms so the texture is… not pleasant. My boyfriend told me that the first hour can make you feel a little sick. Some people cook the shrooms in food, or eat them raw, or drink them in a tea. We chose tea. So I made myself a green tea with my shroom-water and we both start chilling in my room, talking for a while and waiting to see what might happen.
It wasn’t a dramatic experience like, I think, I’d imagined. No mad dancing, whirling shapes, or freaky massive hallucinations. The carpet did feel like a wave and sitting on the loo was a weird experience; my whole flat felt a bit like a boat. Mostly, it was just pure, pure happiness. My boyfriend and I realised after we’d been curled up in bed, talking, laughing, cuddling and kissing for about four hours. Totally blissing out. I remember feeling like my bed and duvet were breathing with me; realistically, I was probably just very aware of my own breath. But it was fascinating. As a writer, creative and someone who – for years – has been fascinated with meditation and mindfulness, I felt so safe and so free and comfortable all at once.
We sobered up slowly and gently. Eventually, we became more aware how much time had passed and we realised we were gradually sobering up. Around this time, we took another gram each but it didn’t seem to have as much of an effect. And that was it. We sobered up but continued to feel embarrassingly and overwhelmingly loved up for the next twenty-four hours at least. We started drinking and welcomed in the new year, watching my neighbour’s fireworks across my garden.
Advice to others:
They taste a little funky so expect your tummy to feel a little weird. You might feel a bit sicky for the first hour but you’ll be okay. Putting them in a tea makes them taste better!
Enjoyment ranking: 10/10
Would I take it again? Yeeeees, I might be a microdose convert.