it hurts
but not like physical pain
the type of pain you feel
deep inside, bruising your soul
making tears sting your eyes
desperately blinking to avoid them falling
so nobody will know
your pain inside
putting on a brave face
‘hey, how are you?’
‘I’m great thanks, you?’
pretending everything is just fine
at night
the mask falls
you let your emotions go
and feel the pain all over your body
with every heart beat
it spreads all around
but what hurts the most
is your head and your heart
it hurts
everywhere
smiling on the outside
suffering on the inside
everyday
again and again
over and over
not knowing what to do
the lies you are told
for your best interests
the lies you tell yourself
to get through the days
but somewhere along the way
they days of keeping it together
will get easier
and fewer
it’s okay
you can do this
because the sun will shine again
and the light will drown out your darkness
Photo courtesy of Ilja Tulip