Letters From Lockdown 49: Cerys Edwards

To my wonderful mother,

“Waterloo, knowing my fate is to be with you wowowowow” can be heard across the country as it hits number 2 on the UK charts, Sugar Baby Love by The Rubettes is number one but no one likes to sing that at karaoke. It’s a Saturday, the rain pours down in Staines as one baby out of the 333,353 also born on that day begins their life, a journey which I am very grateful to be a part of. I wonder if the specific day you’re born really does have an impact on the person you become, does the position of the sun and the moon at the exact second you left the womb make a difference to who you are now? If so, the 11th May 1974 must have been a special day, despite the rain and cheesy pop songs, it produced a pretty decent human being in the form of my mother. Life hasn’t been easy on you, it’s presented you with challenges left, right and center, (me, Alex and Matthew, respectively). But I don’t think I know anyone else who’d be able to push through and carry on, quite like you do, you have shown me how to be strong in the toughest of moments, and how to embrace the happiest of them.

You have a fire inside of you which burns bright, it roars upwards and engulfs every obstacle in its way. I see it in your eyes, even when you think you’re broken, I hear it in your voice and your laughter. I can feel it when you hug me close. Absolutely nothing or no one can extinguish that fire, it can get out of control (I feel sorry for anyone who’s near you when that happens), but it keeps burning no matter what and it spits out cinders and ashes of love. I am so lucky 11th May 1974 happened, firstly if it hadn’t, I wouldn’t be here, nor my two brothers, but most importantly because this world would be a lot colder and darker without your flame.

We are going through a very difficult time, 11th May 2020 is a lot different to the 11th May you were born. Now you have 3 children, a wonderful home and the ability to walk and talk (sort of). One of the most valuable lessons you’ve taught me is to appreciate the small things in life and to be content with what we’ve got. I’m not only content with what we have, I am eternally grateful. We may not be able to leave our homes but that’s okay because if you’re here, I’m already luckier than most.

The world was literally singing its fate is to be with you on the day you were born, as if you are destined to be here, to give your love, to share your thoughts, to teach your children. To power on during a global pandemic whilst supporting everyone around you. Thank you, I will never forget the courage and kindness you constantly show me, you deserve nothing but love in return.

Happy Birthday.

Lots of love,

From Cerys

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